bananasarepurple

You come back, all dressed up, like you've changed

2010-01-04T15:25:00.002+08:00

Chanced upon this old blog of mine while I was at another friend's old blog. And I got to thinking, have I really changed after all these years? What if I go back to read my past entries and I discover that I'm still the same afterall?

Would it be good to change anyway?

Today you left, and when you left, you took my heart with you. I bet you don't even know it.

goodbye blogger

2008-04-01T17:39:00.000+08:00

have changed to lj like ages ago. here's the link!

http://heartsarepurple.livejournal.com/

2007-10-20T20:03:00.000+08:00

i figured that making wishes when they could be achieved from my own hard work is redundant.. so i scrap my first and second wish. but the third wish still stands. someday i want to marry a rich guy that loves me. like Mr. Darcy. wooh!

i think i'm going crazy.

if i had one wish..

2007-10-17T18:55:00.000+08:00

because i am into gratifying myself here, i am going to tell everyone what i would do if i had a fairy godmother come out of a bottle (i'm going to keep all bottles i have now)

first of all, i would ask for TEN more wishes (i'm not greedy i will only want 10 wishes :p) these ten wishes will effectively make my life complete, and make me the happiest girl on planet earth.

1. make me slim! i want to have a slim and toned body like angelina jolie, jessica alba.

2. i want one million dollars for my shopping, ten million dollars for my car, fifteen million for my house and twenty million for my online shopping. that's not much, only about 46 million dollars. Bill Gates has about ten or twenty times the amount. which brings me to my next wish..

3. i want to marry a rich guy. not rich as in one million, but as in several millions, or billions of dollars. perfect for the luxury will be Prince William.

if i marry him i will be Princess something.. i reckon i want you guys to call me Princess Eling. that sounds great!

seven more to go but right now i've lost the mood to do so, honestly i feel like going to sleep. my pilot pen collections has been increasing. i am embarking on a project to accumulate everybody's addresses so i can sometimes send letters to them. goodbye and perhaps i will continue my blog some other day. till then, take care! :)

walk on water

2007-10-05T19:14:00.000+08:00

the National Library Board sent me a letter, informing me of my outstanding fines, and that i should pay up ASAP..

problem is, my fine is only 15 CENTS.

reaching crisis level

2007-09-30T21:20:00.001+08:00

Love don't come so easily
This doesn't have to end in tragedy
I have you and you have me
We're one and a million
Why can't you see?

I'm waitin', waitin' for nothin'
You're leavin', leavin' me hangin'
When did your heart go missin'?

au revoir,

l'accident et brûle

2007-09-26T10:24:00.000+08:00

Je n'a pas d'espoir de retrouver jamais encore. au revoir, pour un temps long

1234 tell me that you love me more

2007-09-22T15:18:00.000+08:00

clouds yesterday were so pretty..

anyw i rewarded myself after prelims, by borrowing books at the library! i've been restricting myself from borrowing books, because i know that i'd be distracted from studying. i'm glad i got read, but i gotta stop soon.

i hope i pass my maths. basically i hope i pass all my subjects. i hate being used by you.. go to hell..

it's not OVER

2007-09-20T13:08:00.000+08:00

prelims are over, but any sane person will know better than to go and forget about everything that we've mugged in the past months. i seriously hope my prelim grades make the cut, i've got a hidden agenda.

anyw trying to find out the cheapest air tickets to taipei! trying to plan on a holiday there after As..

2007-09-18T14:49:00.000+08:00

WHAT AM I DOING WASTING MY TIME HERE. going off in 5 seconds,

5
4
3
2
1

BYE.

- can't wait for prelims to be over (i count my blessings one at a time)

an eye, sorry, EYES FOR GUYS :)

2007-09-16T19:15:00.000+08:00

i. cannot. resist. online. shopping! bought make-up from E.L.F. :)

meanwhile, met joelle for studying yesterday, wait, i mean shopping at ikea. bought this huge ass, er, oh well its a major project for myself. a trip down memory lane for myself.

okay going to study maths now, left exponential and logarthims. i'm so gonna fail maths anyway.

elizabeth&othello

2007-09-12T19:57:00.000+08:00

oi see la you jinxed yourself.

gatsby&kurtz

2007-09-11T19:53:00.000+08:00

my worst nightmare is that i'll open the question paper, and realise that i can do nothing inside.. i guess it's going to happen, if i don't go study now!

sometimes i think doing well for a subject for one exam only adds on pressure when the next exam comes. guess what, what if i open lit tomorrow and tomorrow and i realise i can't do anything?! help me help me..

well at least i got the braided channel correct, let's just hope the 1 or so marks can help me pass.

birthdaythisyearwillbeawonderfullyunforgettablenoe,ijustwantohideaway

our song..

2007-09-07T16:36:00.000+08:00

I've heard every album, listened to the radio
Waited for something to come along
That was as good as our song...

Cause our song is the slamming screen door
Sneaking out late, tapping on his window
When we're on the phone and he talks real slow
Cause it's late and his mama don't know
Our song is the way he laughs
The first date "man, I didn't kiss him, and I should have"
And when I got home, before I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again

GP tomorrow!

2007-09-03T17:33:00.001+08:00

it's like being in love, she said for the first time

2007-09-02T18:08:00.000+08:00

went to some warehouse sales today, and blew about 120 bucks there. Levis', Royal Sporting House and U2 sale. :) i have this feeling that i'm gonna flunk my prelims.

alright nothing else, we <3 wentworth miller!

lines and affections

2007-09-01T11:23:00.000+08:00

over the years i've learnt not to have any hopes when it comes to you. i've had enough lessons. but i'm really glad that when it comes to the crunch, some of us actually rise up to the occasion, put aside their tinny-weeny differences to gather.

perhaps its time for me to put aside my childish affections?

happy teachers' day to all teachers! i've never forgotten the ones who really taught me something before. Ms Joy Chiang, Mr Choi, Mrs Singh, Ms Clara Chan, Mr Bay, Mr Yeo, Mrs Yong, Mr Cia, Ms Ee, Mr Chen, and all my percussion seniors, thank you all for helping me along the way :)

Blog This!

2007-08-29T19:15:00.000+08:00

look what i bought today!

well, a girl's gonna do what a girl's gonna do. and this product is pretty good, i mean, it does what it promises, remove hair, haha. but i only have one gripe..

what am i gonna need a handphone pouch while i'm shaving? so i can put my handphone inside while i shave?

how about changing your free gift to entice some more people to buy your product? :)

2007-08-28T19:58:00.000+08:00

hairspray's the ultimate feel good movie. two thumbs up :) i was totally moving along to the music throughout the movie haha.

2007-08-27T21:53:00.000+08:00

i can totally imagine him singing it :/

She calls me baby
then she wont call me
says she adores me
and then ignores me
(Jenny, What's the problem?)

She keeps her distance
and sits on fences
puts up resistance
and builds defenses
(Jenny, Whats the problem?)

You keep me hanging on the line
everytime you change your mind

First you say you wont
then you say you will
you keep me hanging on
but we're not moving on
we're standing still
Jenny, you've got me on my knees
Jenny, It's killing me

She needs her own space
she's playing mind games
sends up at my place
saying that she's changed
(Jenny, what's the problem?)

I'm trying to read between the lines
you got me going out of my mind

First you say you wont
then you say you will
you keep me hanging on
but we're not moving on
we're standing still
Jenny, you've got me on my knees
Jenny, It's killing me

jenny

2007-08-23T20:42:00.000+08:00

there's this unexplainable mounting anxiety and excitment that's building up right now. i guess i'm not as immune to it as i had hoped/thought i'd be.

2007-08-20T21:16:00.000+08:00

you know when you think too much, you get so caught up, then it'll never come true.. well i'm not gonna tell anyone about it. try me.

let me shop at VS again!

2007-08-19T22:31:00.000+08:00

i like zac efron in Hairspray.

anyone wants to watch Hairspray when it comes out soon?

i also like the analogy about the bear and the fish, dazzalyn should know what i mean, haha.

tale as old as time ; girl you got what you deserved

2007-08-16T18:19:00.000+08:00

shifted the last entry over to my livejournal account, no particular reason, just thought that the long entry was rather too emotional for my liking.

agrotechnology farms

2007-08-12T18:50:00.000+08:00

prolly the most sustainable way of surviving till the big As

having lunch at swensens' with family, then with all best intentions to go study, decided to go vivocity to shop instead, a lil retail therapy never hurts, then resting at home (watched a few episodes of the simpsons and family guy), before going to the usual place for overnighty. and putting in a few more hours the next day.

killing, draining, exhausting.

what's annoying- popping contact lenses in and out of the eyes (they keep me awake w/o a choice)
what's scary- drinking 3 cups of coffee, staying alert enough to absorb litho, then going off to sleep after bathing.

how are we going to find a sustainable way to survive? just let me drop dead.

MY CHINESE RESULTS ARE COMING OUT T-O-M-O-R-R-O-W

fuck.

dreams make me poor

2007-08-10T19:32:00.000+08:00

looking pretty good there Zac Efron.

meanwhile, the highlight of today's studying was being surrounded by this NJ and HCI guy. and the secret to their fab results? well they can concentrate for hours at a go, while my attention span's like a family guy episode.

and one more thing, they read magazines like Economics Review and Business Times when they take a break, while i read mags like Style, and Teenage. need i say more?

wishing upon illict stars

2007-08-09T19:35:00.000+08:00

well for the past week i got sick after wakeboarding.. right now i'm still nursing a cough that seem to have gotten worst..

studying in the cafe in the library is good.. i shall do more of it..

today, woke up, did nothing, and now i'm refusing to watch the ndp'07 on tv cos the best ndp i had was when i performed in it when i was sec 2.. ever since ndp has been anti-climax

the "o" button on my keyboard is spoilt.. and i just discovered somebody got into SMU.. oh my i'm so jealous..

i resolve to study really hard.. to get into a great university of my dreams.. meanwhile today i found quite a lot of new songs.. now chilling out..

i need my java chip frap..

(anyway it's quite good blogging this way, take off pressure, but i risk sounding like a uneducated lian which i'm not thank you very much)

sunburnt at wakeboarding

2007-08-04T17:45:00.000+08:00

Let me paint this picture for you, baby
You spend your nights alone
And he never comes home
And every time you call him
All you get's a busy tone

I heard you found out
That he's doing to you
What you did to me
Ain't that the way it goes

When you cheated girl
My heart bleeded girl
So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
Just a classic case
A scenario
Tale as old as time
Girl you got what you deserved

And now you want somebody
To cure the lonely nights
You wish you had somebody
That could come and make it right
But girl I ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy
You'll see

(What goes around comes back around)

the best things in life are for free

2007-08-02T21:25:00.001+08:00

my coffee addiction (or should i say starbucks) addiction is becoming more pronounced now. i need coffee to make me high, i need coffee to make me study.

maybe this shall be a weekly thing, the kind like, when you say, "same time, same place", we'd instantly know what each other means. :)

item arrival!

2007-08-01T17:45:00.000+08:00

my victoria's secret shorts has finally arrived!

chicken pie

2007-07-29T17:27:00.000+08:00

last night wasn't productive. besides me repeating "you won't understand" to the guys, losing at Scrabbers, trying to read litho notes, the rest of the time i was trying not to fall asleep. i hate having you-know-what. then i slept from 7 to 3, and basically did nothing else. okay i gotta do some more work now. i'm in search for new songs. Mr Man's words seem to be etched into my mind. gotta do more of such things.

2007-07-27T22:12:00.000+08:00

what kind of a society will we have, if we don't have the human inclinations to want company?

and its like that for a reason- (i feel like making sure you'll never hurt me again)

so many thoughts inside, so much unspoken, so much hidden. (thank you)

i want to throw away my television, lock up my computer, destroy all distractions, eradicate all superficial concerns. now i offically regret why i didn't chose to go to a cold heartless school.

Mr Man

2007-07-23T20:31:00.000+08:00

Mr Man

Mr Man says, we all have to craft out a crazy study plan NOW. We all have to stick to it, like study 6-8 hours a day, and a full 12 hours during weekends, and be able to complete all revisions and tutorials set by the teachers, and get enough rest so as to not fall asleep in school.

Following such a study plan, we should have just enough time to finish all revisions before prelims. And after that we have to crazy finish all TYS, past examination papers, essay questions, tutorials, mock exams.

Mr Man says after this hellish 12 weeks what we will reap back will be unbelievable- good results, a place in the preferred university, but best of all, we will be able to beat all the smart-asses in the top 5 JCs. I want!

So according to Mr Man's plan, i should be studying now, instead of skipping geog revision lecture, going home to take a nap, then watching tv, then online. Sorry MR MAN!

harry potter

2007-07-21T23:18:00.000+08:00

YES!i've finished reading my harry potter and the deathly hallows! but of course i won't spoil it for anymore. and i think that those people on tv who queued up overnight for the book or are so crazy (just watch news) is so silly? i mean i am a fan of the series and i always watch the movie and all but isn't it going too far to call yourself a "fanatic"?

essentially the principle is similar to that of silly/crazy fans obsessing over some superstar right? going to the extent of hiring cars.. stalking them..

but anyway now it's back to studying. today's weather was fabulous. there was even a point in time where i panicked and thought i wouldn't be able to go out hahaha.

presenting my collection of notes. this is where the magic happens baby. yeah right whatever. i'm itching to do somemore online shopping. what i'd ordered hasn't arrived yet! its taking so darn long

happy kind of singing

2007-07-19T19:51:00.000+08:00

today was a very draining day. i felt like just giving up so many times, i felt like snapping at everybody, i felt like being mean to people around me, i wanted to hand in slipshod work. (i did)

this can't go on. i swear i'm gonna get my starbucks fix more than once weekly now.

today's the third day running, ohh this is getting exciting!

saturday's coming! this means harry potter book is coming. :)

i wanna sing songs in the canteen leh. pangyu says i sing nice. HAHAHA ok somebody don't kill me now. i sing to you too. :)

ramblings-

2007-07-18T20:44:00.000+08:00

pile of tutorials is never ending, but i always seem to get around not doing it. i mean, well i do the bare necessary (ie. econs only) and the rest i can get around bluffing it. somewhere inside me i know this is probably why i get such dismal grades but i'm not gonna complain much, it has never failed me so far :)

my pimple(S) on my nose, my face, my chin, everywhere is super annoying me! how come my pimples never go away despite me lashing on the pimple creams. eeee.

and sometimes i think i get too worked up over the sillest things? i know its true. okay i'm trying to control my temper. help me guys!

*i love your aloofness, the confident walk you have. i love your sullen face, and even though you have body odor i will not mind, because it means i am close enough to smell you. so let me see more of you :) you make my day

okay i'm off to doing lit. and my afternoon nap earlier (5-7.30pm) really replenished my energy. i seem to be seeing whoever i want to see nowadays fantastic. i hesitated buying starbucks, and now i have an offical craving for sakae. its great that there's a starbucks outlet in sengkang, and i dont live in some ulu ulu place like say kovan. HAHA.

i see the green in grass

2007-07-16T18:44:00.000+08:00

thank you thank you thank you whoever's up there. thank you for giving me this feeling. i'm so thankful thank you so much.

and i see the hope in failures.

bags

2007-07-15T20:51:00.000+08:00

i haven't done anything since friday.

what about the 13 geog essays to be done, DRQs, tutorials, econs tutorials? untouched, that's for sure.

how come i cannot get into the mood yet?

there's a new tw bag spree. gosh i'm awfully tempted. and its so cheap to buy the bag somemore! think tmr i'll view them in school library properly :) so exciting!

for lack of love. i blog.

2007-07-14T13:38:00.000+08:00

harry potter was anti-climax. but i thought voldemort's and malfoy's suit were HAWT. they looked so polished, handsome, and, wait, the movie isn't just about them.

i understand they have to take out several subplots in the book in order to compress it into a movie of 138 mins, but it resulted in a somewhat interrupted flow of events, pple who didn't read the book before should not watch the movie, because they'd get a wrong impression of events.

but loony luna was good, i like her acting. haha. and oh i tried so hard to feel emotional when sirius died, but i can't feel anything much.

after movie we walked around and talked, we definitely must do more of such stuff. and how come everywhere i go my friends laugh at me? i only mistook a art piece to be a circle, and when i was approaching the circle became an oval, wth?

voldemort consider me your death eater

hopscotch marmalade

2007-07-13T19:09:00.000+08:00

chinese oral (retook), and you guys know what? i was the very very very last person to have the oral. like the whole hall was empty except me and the 2 teachers, and the teachers slacked on me (i think), other ppl's oral took around 10 mins, mine took only 5 mins.. it was like over in a flash.

and i think i'm not gonna do well for it, argh.

going to watch harry potter movie later at 11pm!

this first full week back at school, i've never studied so much during breaks. and i resolve i'm going to study full steam ahead, haha, sure, eling. i've got a pic of all my notes neatly filed up together somewhere..

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears
they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

wait for you- Elliott Yamin

potential breakup song

2007-07-11T20:37:00.000+08:00

this term seems different. many ways. well for one, we seem to spend all our free periods doing tutorials. the other changes are intangible in nature.

i am beginning to get more benefits from being alone- there's no point in hanging around people always, only getting negative externalities. but i wish that there could be some other better ways to go around doing it.

*maybe its because i finally allowed myself to see this for what it really is.

watched this show the other night, and it just struck me how important communication is, and i laughed to myself, because i'm doing exactly not that. i wish there were some ways i could recover that, but it seems out of reach now :(

results- this midyrs really sucked, cos i'm deproving (if there's ever such a word) in all my subjects.
GP- D (i've nv gotten a D before #%^%*&)
Maths- U
Econs- S
Geog- S

i swear i'm gonna work HARDER. soon, that is. i'm gonna start doing song recommendations here next entry. :)

guess who's back, back again

2007-07-08T21:24:00.000+08:00

crap i'm getting super depressed about going back to school and facing another whole week of mindless school, this time with no netball to look forward to. oh no.

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2007-07-03T14:57:00.000+08:00

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shifted

2007-04-01T16:56:00.000+08:00

how about this change-

http://heartsarepurple.livejournal.com/

take a look, afterall, why not? and feel free to post comments =)

tell me; how to?

2007-03-28T21:26:00.000+08:00

maybe alongside with that you could create meaning too-

will they burn for me

2007-03-20T17:48:00.000+08:00

eagerly waiting for block tests results to come out- i know its a bye bye to geog! and i feel sadistic. it feels like a repeat of last year's midyear geog paper, when i saw the black hole (now i know its a doline- i think), i just laughed. but this block test i didn't laugh, maybe cos i couldn't breathe throughout all the papers. damn.

anyw i think its awfully funny that they put pictures of rocks in the exam papers then ask you what weathering process have they undergone. HAHA

take me over when I'm gone

take me over make me strong

take me over when I'm gone

will they burn for me

-

2007-03-18T21:20:00.000+08:00

i am so gonna die for block tests- i spent yesterday and today sleeping totally, cos of my flu. and i seem to spend an awful lot of time reading geog notes- and geog is the topic that i know i don't (and won't) score in. so how now?

feel awfully lonely this weekend, yet somehow i welcome it, having no disturbance from the outside world, only my family around.

watched extreme makeover home edition- every time i watched it, i will never fail to cry la, damn its too touching la

these pictures of you and I

2007-03-15T18:25:00.000+08:00

GEOG TRIP was a blast- when you take away the 12 x 2 hour train ride. but other than that, i thought the trip was fun. i felt we were like a fambily HAHAHA. esp the limestone cave, although we all came out of the cave muddy sweaty wet but i thought it was a learning experience that made us stronger. lalalala

=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)(and you know why)

and the hotel was pretty good too, like, a palace standing proud in the middle of all the run-down places they had there. plus there was this awesome view of the limestone cave just outside of the place.

but what i considered was the best was that everyone of us got a prolonged time to spend with each other, and like some chinese idiom, when you're at home you depend on ur parents, when you're out you depend on your friends, i thought that was pretty cool and true. =)

<33

careful crafting with love

2007-03-11T15:29:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wish i could craft an exquisite discourse that could express my thoughts and feeling perfectly- not wasting any more words than i need to. but of course that requires a command over the english language that is way beyond me. and that sometimes frustrate me because i cannot put stuff into chim-sounding words that makes me sound clever, and of course it obstructs my ascend to the A in literature and gp and econs (no concerns for geog)

omg man i sound whiny.

revolt; regret

2007-03-11T09:10:00.000+08:00

will you just take a look at my blog now? i swear its the ugliest and most disgusting blogskin i ever had. really. upgrading it tothe google thing was the worst mistake i ever made. damn it i'm so angry at myself now. it just makes me not feel like blogging anymore.

ok, tmr's gp test, then geog trip. i've decided to go in the end, just hope it'll be fun. i know i'll try my best to have fun anyway. and when i come back, its sushi sushi sushi joelle and alvin! looking forward to meeting them again =)

-

2007-03-09T15:11:00.000+08:00

the best times now

2007-02-28T20:47:00.000+08:00

shh, let's listen to the sound.
you hear it?
its calling-

maybe i'm unappreciative , or even ignorant, but i'll do anything just to get an escape.

06A302

awwww

pretend- i'm so natural

2007-02-24T22:53:00.000+08:00

shopping at vivocity today with dazzle! seriously i saw so many things that i wanted to get.

bought a top from topshop, after much deliberation and searching for alternatives from other shops. suddenly topshop stuff looks good. i remember before cny i was looking for new year clothes there, and nothing looked good then. =) =) =)

i bought an address book too, actually just a notebook for everyone to write their address in. i have some evil plans. hohohoho

and i love river island! its a new shop in vivo. everyone should go and see it. i'm gonna save up 60 bucks to go buy something from there. and put something in my wishlist, something like if i could have one thing i'd want it from river island. (pretty purple!)

romantic lunch in marche (not). and silly "free" card on the table. i love river island!

and its down to serious mugging tomorrow. if i continue to spend money like how i did today i'll be broke by tomorrow.

btw i love shoes like this!

been looking for shoes like this for a long long time and i dont see much of it in singapore. =(=(=(

bring it down; make me stronger

2007-02-20T17:53:00.000+08:00

lit assignment deadline tomorrow. mj teachers are really a pervertic lot. eeeeeyeeeer

oh the other day sharissa and i were walking along the corridor in school, the second level near container classrooms, and we saw/heard this couple of guys playing the guitar and singing dishwalla's angels or devils, o-m-g that was so hot so i'm calling out whoever that was please join some school concert and sing okay!

right. i'll laugh my *** off should that ever happen.

by the way i'm still waiting for the unexpected incident.

right.

been watching the channel U 7pm show, some chinese version of she's the man, which was an adapted version of shakespear's twelfth night. can't help it, the guy Wu Zun, is damn hot.

some pictures of my siblings, taken during the first day of new year!

my brother(older) my sisters (younger).

and of course leaving you with this

I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see

cooled offkisses

2007-02-19T16:09:00.000+08:00

cny break is about 3 quads through, am feeling the effects here. the after-effects of having everyone crowded into your house and making a helluva noise.

but its great seeing my whole family. afterall, its only once a year lah. nothing more than that please. haha.

if a great wave should fall

2007-02-17T14:08:00.000+08:00

valentine's day was wednesday, and i was very happy on that day. everyone was giving each other love notes, sweets and chocolates, and i felt so touched that everyone was actually so sweet and really showing their appreciation of each other. =)

i personally think that the angel and mortal game was quite a success, but a failure when it came to my angel. guys are stupid. any one willing to prove me wrong?

i ponned thursday. haha.

friday was cny celebrations. a whole brunch of us were going crazy during the concert, it can be considered one of the most fun concerts i ever had in mj. and it was fun cos of the people, not the event itself.

kbox after that, and i discovered one major thing. WENTWORTH MILLER WAS IN MARIAH CAREY'S WE BELONG TOGETHER MTV!!!! so shocking! i swear i'm gonna watch that vid everyday on youtube now.

okay today is new yr eve. i'm gonna continue watching my prison break. byebye people. happy cny everyone! =)

tell me that's the end of the road

did i tell you? me and joelle are using the same blogskin! hahaha

take me over make me strong

2007-02-12T16:29:00.000+08:00

this person, which i originally thought was funny and a great friend actually turned out to be someone that i am starting to detest greatly now. the very actions and words that comes out of that person's mouth just puts me off.

i'm talking about a guy here, in fact.

okay let's put it aside. i wanna know one thing

WHERE IS MY ANGEL!!! =(

today's skies were so blue, so beautiful

i'm not missing you

2007-02-11T19:32:00.000+08:00

i've been sick since friday night!

freaking miserable!

but at least tmr i wont need to run 2.4!

heh heh heh

perhaps the only fault being..

2007-02-08T21:44:00.000+08:00

TODAY I EXPERIENCED SO MANY DIFFERENT EMOTIONS:

embarassement/silliness
excitment/high/silliness
okay the following emotions seemed undescribable.

all i can say is that i loved today! 'twas strange, 'twas pitiful strange. hur hur.

everything's been so encouraging so far, i shall work harder. yay!

-and i must say sorry to the floorball guy whom i grabbed his floorstick wrongly by incident today. :D

-and dazzalyn de cruz i can offically blackmail you alr hohoho. just check ur mail. chan too!

MIRANDA 3 <333>

let's pretend for a second

2007-02-06T17:44:00.000+08:00

sometimes the best things to do is to just keep quiet. stop your sniggering and snickering behind-

i'll leave it for the time being, off to take a nap. back to finish it later.

I get lost in your eyes

2007-02-04T19:28:00.000+08:00

this whole week seem like school. let me explain-

friday after school we went on a geog trip to URA. and that was after our geog test. how would anyone feel good? oh at least we went on ice-cream outing after that. *happyhappy

somemore i saw my "best friend" there. HAHA.

saturday was road race. had to wake up bloody early cos we were student officials. heh heh. had a great time with the netball girls in the morning. slacking, of course.

after that hung out with the girls in my class at the beach before going home. and that was my saturday. =(

today went to visit some organic farms at krangi for our geog project. LOL some people wanted to suntan huh. the sun was sapping away my energy.

i got mad seeing how come people can change their minds that easily. with your kind of determination, how can you ever expect someone to be there for you?

okay stupid emo just ignore.

its starting (or should i say have been for a long time) frustrating me that i have to deal with this. maybe you should contemplate changing to a better you, or i should just change to a more tolerable me.

irreversible decisions

2007-02-01T17:58:00.000+08:00

today was the start of our compass electives, and i went for the photog class, click!

and after that i got pretty inspired, so on the way home i start snapping some pictures!

okay i'm an amateur totally. haha. but i thought this pic somehow was symbolic of there always being a way out even if you are stuck even in the most sticky situations.

haha. okay whatever.

okay maybe you feel guilty, and maybe i don't.

or maybe i am letting myself get more irritated than i need to. control.

anyw this sat is mj road race and i'm the student official! which means i won't have to run and yet get 5 hours of CIP!! eat your hearts out people!

okay back to studying for geog test :)

concentrated sadness

2007-01-30T20:23:00.000+08:00

WOAH. please believe me when i say it has got to be over.

sillest people with the sillest feelings experienced and the sillest things said and the sillest actions done.

i'm talking about myself.

you have got to get unwanted stuff out of your focus ;

because what you get is the sillest results.

the times when i forget myself is when i'm with people i feel comfortable with. and i want to forget myself. there's nothing much worth to remember about me.

tag buddy! =(

I want to get away, to our sweet escape

2007-01-28T17:47:00.000+08:00

its time to contemplate the possibility that i could be fine, and not be upset at all.

i shall be fine because i want to be. (then there's the cue for a smile)

If I could escape and recreate a place that's my own world and I could be your favourite girl, perfectly together and tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet?

this is one freaking weekend that i never want repeated.

This ain't a scene, its a goddamn arms race

2007-01-28T10:41:00.000+08:00

everything's gotta come to an end. and the end came. so i'd appreciate if nothing more of that sort is ever mentioned.

how could i ever be so stupid?

somebody tell me its okay to feel this way please.

when all you see is you in your eyes

2007-01-25T19:50:00.000+08:00

sillyness is really becoming a virus that's making its rounds. everyday i get something to laugh about. omg.

anyway happy birthday pangyu! you look really gross with whipped cream.

i really need to start studying seriously. and stop using mugging already. i am sick of that term. makes me sound like a thief. lol.

i love silly people!

2007-01-23T22:50:00.000+08:00

everything that i had hoped would not return from last year happily came back. like a troop of ants. you know, ants are silly and mindless, they don't have a mind of their own, what they are is leaded by is the king/queen ant.

somewhat akin to following the utmost desire in your mind, to the extend that you are either 1. unaware or 2. unconcerned about how silly and moronic you sound. omg imagine if its the latter!

i sure had a great time over that today. haha.

so, coming up, i'm gonna do a research study.

discuss the extend of stupidity that people can go to, with emphirical evidences.

how fun!

seeing that there are just about abundance of examples everyone, omg i'm gonna ace this paper.

seriously know. instead of troubling and feeling frustrated over how silly some people are, why not look at the bright side of things? haha its so damn ironic. the more you study, the stupider you get.

silly silly silly! i feel so happy typing the words! =)=)=)=)

meanwhile, the ants continue marching steadily into...

Why- Annie Lennox

2007-01-17T19:41:00.000+08:00

How many times do I have to try to tell you
That I'm sorry for the things I've done
But when I start to try to tell you
That's when you have to tell me
Hey...this kind of trouble's
Only just begun I tell myself too many times
Why don't you ever learn to keep your big mouth shut?
That's why it hurts so bad
To hear the words that keep on falling
From your mouth
Falling from your mouth
Falling from your mouth

Tell me...
Why
Why
I may be mad
I may be blind
I may be viciously unkind
But I can still read what you're thinking
And I've heard it said too many times
That you'd be better off
Besides...
Why can't you see this boat is sinking
(This boat is sinking this boat is sinking)
Let's go down to the water's edge
And we can cast away those doubts
Some things are better left unsaid
But they still turn me inside out
Turning inside out
Turning inside out

Tell me...
Why
Tell me...
Why
This is the book I never read
These are the words I never said
This is the path I'll never tread
These are the dreams I'll dream instead
This is the joy that's seldom spread
These are the tears...
The tears we shed
This is the fear
This is the dread
These are the contents of my head
And these are the years that we have spent
And this is what they represent
And this is how I feel

Do you know how I feel?
'Cause I don't think you know how I feel
I don't think you know what I feel
I don't think you know what I feel
You don't know what I feel

smack that

2007-01-14T16:47:00.000+08:00

hello can i just say i am now currently hooked on online shopping on spree thanks to limsimyee and ngsiewming who introduced me to it!

saw this shirt and blouse that i thought was incredibly pretty so i just had to make my order for it. and thus i did. haha.

so when the orders comes, (i think it'll take a while) i'll show u guys it!

one more thing. i am so touched with miranda 3, they are so bonded! makes me wonder if our a202 was but a mere facade. hurhur.

i guess i need to meet some other people of a202 huh?

new bag and wallet!

2007-01-14T11:56:00.000+08:00

went for family lunch at suntec marche yesterday, then shopping at marina square and chinatown. hahaha.

to put it short, i bought a shirt, pants, a wallet, and a bag!!

this my wallet! haha from nike.

and finally.. the bag which i was like hesitiating over to buy for like the longest time.. some people take days and weeks to agonise over to buy it or not, i'm different, i took the time of only one hour before i decided to buy it. i'm good huh?

and i asked like so many people, mostly people from my class, thanks siewming, simyee, chan, angela, dazzle.. haha

there! i pretty like this bag. say its nice when u see it tmr k? haha =)

A clean-shaven head might be considered sexy these days

2007-01-11T18:33:00.000+08:00

YES. haven been updating. i just felt lazy to update. afterall, what can be interesting about attending school, going home, finishing tutorials, going home, sleeping?

and that means.. i've nothing to say. haha.

anyway, i'm rich! my money's finally come, so i can go shopping!

and the title came from today straits times Urban supplement, and it says "A clean-shaven head might be considered sexy these days" and guess what?

IT'S TOTALLY TRUE CAN?!!!

i mean, haha anyone can tell you zidane has the best hair ever. oh somebody stop me from telling the story again.

yes yes hello to limin and bryan! haha tag buddy i haven seen u online for the longest time too. melaniekang java chip frap!

When you were lonely, and you needed me to be there

2007-01-06T18:55:00.000+08:00

i'm sick. no voice.

that's why its gonna be a short post

i spent the entire orientation telling my OG that meridian is a JC worth staying in, that your future would be a good one, thanks to meridian, and that meridian is a good school.

although i can't say that my time in MJ has been all smooth-sailing, but i'll say that i don't regret that i chose MJ. (and my combi)

well i must admit i was influenced by what mr hon said too.

something along the line that since we all are in this shit already, we must get the freshies in it to suffer with us too. haha

but i really like miranda 3. although they are a PCME combi, although they tend to overanalyse everything, although they like to make fun of us,they are still a great OG, judging from how crazy they went during campfire.

oh did i mention? miranda got rid of the castor curse- of being last, miranda got 3rd!!

my head's throbbing.

homework's scaring me. maybe i can get a extension on my homework, seeing i wasn't in class last week?

What hurts the most, is being so close

2007-01-02T19:59:00.000+08:00

okay. i think how i thought was described acutely by dazzle. but how i really feel? that is still a mystery.

this week will be a busy one. from tmr till sunday. let's see.

wed to fri- orientation '07 VINCITORE
sat- out mugging
sun- netball match, then gotta rush home to bath before gg to take edusave money.

lol. happy beginning of that crazy sch year everyone!

the last post. (of the year)

2006-12-31T22:03:00.000+08:00

a while ago i posted this list of things that i said i want accomplished before the end of 2006, here's reviewing:

watch one more movie (any movie!) curse of the golden flower anyone??
eat at subway
meet dazzle for like the longest time since her work would end alr
play pool with sharissa and jacob and whoever that wants to
cut hair
TRY to finish holiday homework (TRY)

remember?? and.... YES I'VE DONE THEM ALL! yup. including that "try" to finish hliday homework. which only includes me reading until Act 4 of Othello. haha.

so, in view of this festive season, i've decided i'll make some new year resolutions. (nobody say anything about abiding by them)

so.. in 2007.. i'll resolve to..

save $10 every week so i'll have money to spend when i need them!
allocate every friday (or anyday which i finish sch early) to stay in the library and mug.
mug with secret mugging partner, right sharissa?
improve stamina, lose weight, improve on attendence (i.e. no more PONNING!!!!)
shop for things that i really NEED! not want!
be rational, not emotional
treat my friends better. lucky people!
treat family better.
studies first, others get lost.
no more eating fast food other than once a week. people help me!

okay i think that's all. and i will really try to abide by it. afterall, they are for my own good.

happy new year/2007 everyone!

click---click---click

2006-12-28T23:18:00.000+08:00

how many days left to '07, and the dreaded As?

click.

how much time do we have, before we all settle into the fearful routine we know so well, mugging?

click.

and how long would it be, before our nerves snap from the prolonged contact we shall have with each other, and we start to fight?

click.

but somehow, despite all that, i know that i'm looking forward to 2007.

maybe its because i know i shall face it with a new attitude, be determined not to repeat the same foolish mistakes i've made this year, and treasure the times i shall have with 302, because as we all know, after this year, we're gonna be separated, and forever freed from wearing school uniforms.

so let's all treasure 2007, because its sure gonna be a memorable one.

if i could, then i would

2006-12-26T00:51:00.000+08:00

talking to tag buddy will somehow always go to us discussing this particular topic, and then get us both feeling down. haha. right tag buddy?

urgh. i feel lousy. boo.

-

2006-12-22T17:59:00.000+08:00

approaching the end of 2006, i feel like i'm withdrawing into my shell.

looking forward to this weekend, the bbq with my family (i'll take pictures!)

school is STARTING. the things i want to do before school really start:

watch one more movie (any movie!) curse of the golden flower anyone??
eat at subway
meet dazzle for like the longest time since her work would end alr
play pool with sharissa and jacob and whoever that wants to
cut hair
TRY to finish holiday homework (TRY)

okay these things sound like they can all combine into one day. haha.

See, all I want you to do is be my love

2006-12-20T22:30:00.000+08:00

I need a walk, a long walk. So that I can maybe lose you somewhere along the way.

I need to let go, fast

almost, quite, too perfect

2006-12-19T16:32:00.000+08:00

i THINK i've improved in my pool skill! thanks to joelle and alvin haha

holiday homework not done, pissed cos someone PSed me repeatedly

all you need is, love, actually

2006-12-17T00:05:00.000+08:00

went out with alvin and joelle today/yesterday, looking at the time now. and we went raffles city shopping centre, citylink mall, suntec, marina square and esplanade in a period of only 5 hours! i think we did a lot of things today. haha.

did i mention i went to find dazzle too?! wah somebody wearing make-up huh. HAHA

i think the christmas decorations at marina square is very nice. very very.

don't you think so? and at esplanade too!

although the wiremesh creations looks a bit doogy haha. but there was really the christmassey mood la.

and the like what joelle said earlier in her blog, we went to write on some white ball at esplanade, wishes for the new year. here's what i wrote

and what alvin wrote

and what joelle wrote

after that we proceeded to fill up the entire ball with our messy writings. loads of weird stuff sure came out of it, drew loads of hearts and stick creations, well none of us could draw very well la! haha.

us with the completed ball! LOL.

and leaving you with this:

my current eyecandy

2006-12-14T13:23:00.000+08:00

give it up for LUO YUTONG of china!!!!!!

i don't know about you guys, but i've been watching the live telecast of the Doha Games on channel 5 every night from 11.30pm, and this guy caught my eye the other day. he's super cute, add on to that he competes in the diving competiton, required to wear a swimming truck and so on so forth, i think he's damn hot/cute/cool/and all that blabberdatter

what's more, he was the old medalist diver in the 1m Springboard finals event! though i know nuts about diving i can tell that he looks really confident and sure of himself. which just makes me swoon la haha. he's everything a girl can ask for.

Luo Yutong is in the center! another hot guy is also present, the jap guy on the left, Ken Terauchi. he's also a great example of hot guy with shaven hair. see see see?

see the image of utter concentration in his face and eyes? swoons

long/short, coupled with ugly/beautiful

2006-12-12T17:40:00.000+08:00

TODAY I RAN/JOGGED (VERY SLOWLY) 5 ROUNDS DURING TRAINING!! haha i said i would blog about it.

and then aft training went Ikea to have lunch. ate a lot. and when i got home i tried to sleep i couldn't. i think its because my leg muscles are all tensed up lor.

getting a bore to update my blog, and to a certain extent, come online. i find the act of turning on my com a torturous/tiring/SIAN one. even the lure of watching prison break doesn't motivate me leh, maybe cos i watch until season 2 epi 7 alr.

maybe i won't succumb to it next year. who knows? all i know is that i've got a secret mugging partner huh. hahaha.

not some ordinary shallow reason

2006-12-10T02:31:00.000+08:00

i think guys with shaven hair are HOT. and its not because i'm like a freak busy watching prison break okay. its because its only when guys are shaven that their true facial features comes out. like the bone structure, their eyes, smile, uh huh. please understand everyone.

"A maiden never bold ; Of spirit so still and quiet that her motion Blushed at herself"

2006-12-09T21:07:00.000+08:00

i woke up today with aches thanks to friday's training. hahaha the 140 crunches, 60 push-ups, 50 back extentions, 5 rounds on track made my muscles ache. add on to that i went to study after training, guess what you get huh.

yesterday got home around 9pm, then i was so exhausted that i did nothing but bath and sleep. haha. and i dreamt about someone not turning off my room's lights, reading smses blurrily, getting up to drink some water, then finally waking up with body aching all over.

went tekong today to send brother off to his NS. we had to take a bus then a ferry to reach there. they showed us the recruits' sleeping rooms and the recre room, lol the place looks kinda bland but oh well they are there to build team spirit and get disclipline and to be prepared to serve the nation. i can tell that my brother's gonna experience something that he'll never forget. but its gonna be a tough path for him haha. the food there is also like.. ahaha. that place felt like a tough camp. but it'll be made bearable, or even fun, with all the pple that's accompanying him thru this tough journey.

meanwhile, i'm gonna be the eldest in the family! muhahahahahahah

i finished reading Othello Act One! took me a while to comprehend back the shakespearan language but got the hang of it quite quickly. shall finish reading Othello by the end of this holiday!

"She loved me for the dangers I had passed,
And I loved her that she did pity them."

"the questions you ask, there are answers"

2006-12-07T21:03:00.000+08:00

just finished watching Prison Break season one!!!!! omg and i'm gonna start on season two tmr, and then watch desperate housewives, Lost season two cos i totally missed them when channel 5 was showing it, family guy, and maybe start on some other tv drama shows before the holiday ends hahaha.

don't say im doing no work. i'm gg mugging tmr la! gonna start reading Othello, and do econs. lol.

okay here's the website. =)

the loud silence

2006-12-05T21:41:00.000+08:00

seettha gave me this website, that has ALL the hottest tv drama series there, seriously. there's Lost, Nip/Tuck, Little Britain, and my fav PRISON BREAK!! there are also cartoons like Family Guy, American Dad, Batman and all. def a great website. haha.

and that's why you guys will see me appearing offline nowadays. so msg me if you really need me. =)

YES. songs do have memories. but there's no particular song that i share a memory with you. i'm looking forward to having one. eeee mushy

"don't walk away, cos every step you take, its taking you further from my heart"

2006-12-03T20:33:00.000+08:00

campATTITUDE.

okay no way i'm going to be able to summaries it in a few sentences. but i'll try to do so.

the morning of the camp, i bought lousy breakfast at 7-11. as in the 70cents lousy bread, and some absurdly rip-off drink at $1.70 when there was some offer at 2 bottles at $2 (WHICH I WAS UNAWARE OF)
our first meeting of the kids in bishan cc, saw us encountering the kids singing jaychou's song, that duet with the stupid feiyuqing.IMAGINE our shock.
Purple Penguins kids- that liang guy, hong wen, jordon (whom i kept calling gordon by mistake until he complained), and the cutest melodie (who was chan's fav huh huh huh)
my fav kid was that liang guy la.
i never before saw chan with so much patience with kids. (okay i've NEVER seen her with kids hahaha)
kids ask the funniest questions. (who is chan? why u call her chan? must we wear our identities when we change clothes? how about when we bath? then when we sleep?)
they remember only one thing- it seems. (melodie only remembered wysen's "lelong lelong!" hahaha)
the cutest and sweetest thing said, "I want to come back and help the camp next year!"- Jordon, awwwww
some of the kids really believed i was 5 yrs old laaaaa, and some really believed that i was married la. thanks to chan
the pre-nightwalk walk with jason and jacob, was so relaxing and it seem to give me some energy back for the night events
tried to see stars, bitched/talked/joked outside, until we heard barking and howling( dogs and people respectively) and we ran back into the hall- realised it was nth after a while
coke gives you energy, but only for a while, until everyone falls asleep at 4.30am with the tv on, and iris playing.
THE BEST FEMALE, MALE CAMPER, AND BEST FACILITATOR OF THE CAMP CAME FROM PURPLE PENGUINS! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D
ohhh there was a huiguniang, wysen's. HAHA.
zhirong, dazzle, me, and chan all thought that a camper was hot, and that he would grow up to be a lady-killer. HAHAHA.
everyone died and went to sleep on the way to ikea after break camp, only me and
dazzle were the sole survivors
ikea food was delicious, sorry i was so snappy
home-sweet-home/bath(its a given!)/slept.
mosquito-bites

oh wow i summarised the camp in like 19 points. somethings to say? well not all of us were good facilitators i would say. not all of us played our part in the camp. but all of sure surely had fun in the camp. =)

what to say. alright simyee give us more of such things! thanks to the pple (jacob simyee siewming jason hemma izane theresa gary) for organising that camp and let us have such fun with the kids and gaining cip hrs at the same time! =)

what happened?

2006-12-02T14:08:00.000+08:00

blogging about the CIP camp will have to come later cos i'm waiting for the best facilitator of the camp to come online so i can get the pictures from her. =)

come, let me tell you guys something. i have the same username&password for almost all the sites. eg blogger/photobucket/neopets/blogskins, and the same password for hotmail/mjcweb/google/maple hahahahaha but the password is un-guessable. i swear.

obviously i'm really bored. yesterday after the camp we took 58 to ikea from bishan, simyee and jacob warned that the trip will take about an hr half, but me and dazzle, we sat together and watched the 9pm show on tv mobile, and after the show ended we just talked, for maybe like 5 mins? then we reached ikea alr. and there's really no link.

but the song that came on immediately when i played my shuffle had a link huh. HAHA.

i'm gonna stay home cos of prison break encore (4pm) and then shrek tonight oohhh there's gonna be telly for the rest of the night. hahaha.

my legs are like mosquito-bitten la. and like i got more after i reached home. think i'll go out get some snacks after i bath.

one last thing, mugging partners anyone?

damn boring

2006-11-29T12:28:00.000+08:00

i have nothing to do today cos my friend PS me! and that's why i'm stuck at home urggghhhh

caught step up ytd (finally!) and i wonder why nobody noticed that there was a dancer that looked really like daniel izzat la. albeit the thinner and shorter version. but still, really looking like daniel izzat lor hahaha.

anyw i much prefer channing tatum in she's the man la. much hotter and sexier than dressing up as some hip hop loser dancer? okay okay fine whatever see the pictures i am damn lousy at analogies

see in she's the man he wore clothes that actually looked as though they fit unlike

unlike step up where the clothes he wore are like oversized and all to give him the hip hop look lol aiyoooooo im just really bored la seriously i'll be blogging more today

2006-11-27T21:21:00.000+08:00

Lately, I've been tryna fight whatever's pulling us under

it's got a hold and really making me wonder

what it takes to get through

I gotta stick with you, my baby

Baby tell me:

Maybe I'm foolishly overreacting

But being without you I can't imagine

It's just to close to the heart

And I won't stand it if were broken apart

Do you hear me?

Baby ya gotta believe in the things that make you & me win together

Don't you throw in the towel

I'm keeping my promise to you

I got ya back now

When the chips are down

It seems like it's so hard for you to move ahead

Just know that I am by your side

There aint no ifs, buts, or maybes,

I'm gonna stay down and ride for you baby

three cheers for sweet revenge

2006-11-27T14:08:00.000+08:00

let's put it together.

an attempt that didn't work out- hopes are dashed
being taken too seriously- which sucked
lifeless, dead, unfollowed through events- just how determined are you

i think that's enough. shh, this blog ain't for such depressing minds.

sometimes insecurities creep into your mind, and the weakest people are those that succumb to it when they are all alone. and i am one perfect example. you'll never see me quiet or sad when i'm around people. that means you'll hardly ever, or you'll never, see me in another mood other than mad/crazy/"weird"

maybe i'm foolishly overreacting

its just the rain